Boy, I thought about this a lot when I was younger and moving around a ton. Then I found my forever place and just have to be me. I like that better.
This post reminds me so much of one of my favorite songs, "The Weight of Lies" by the Avett Brothers. All about relocating and what you tell people about who you are. As they say, "Lies don't need an aeroplane to chase you down."
That is a skill I've never learned. Reinventing myself is beyond me. Everywhere I go, there I am. And the years and years I was so desperate to NOT be me and couldn't ever shed enough of me to matter...oy. Others' expectations didn't factor, I just wanted to stop being a target. The butt of jokes, the embarrassing oddball, a giant Brunhilde lacking only a helmet with horns. The best I could do was to make sure I had outlandish hair. It was my only shield.
I find this fascinating because I see you as someone who has reinvented herself multiple times; after your divorce, when you met Mick, when Sebastian became independent, and recently, too, when you started vlogging.
I guess maybe it depends on how we define reinvention. I see it as a shift towards becoming more true to ourselves. I hear what you're saying about just not wanting to be target, anymore. How other people treat us is largely out of our control, and bullies don't want us to lift ourselves up. The only thing we can do is get away from them, and often that's enough for us to more fully inhabit ourselves.
Boy, I thought about this a lot when I was younger and moving around a ton. Then I found my forever place and just have to be me. I like that better.
This post reminds me so much of one of my favorite songs, "The Weight of Lies" by the Avett Brothers. All about relocating and what you tell people about who you are. As they say, "Lies don't need an aeroplane to chase you down."
That is a skill I've never learned. Reinventing myself is beyond me. Everywhere I go, there I am. And the years and years I was so desperate to NOT be me and couldn't ever shed enough of me to matter...oy. Others' expectations didn't factor, I just wanted to stop being a target. The butt of jokes, the embarrassing oddball, a giant Brunhilde lacking only a helmet with horns. The best I could do was to make sure I had outlandish hair. It was my only shield.
I find this fascinating because I see you as someone who has reinvented herself multiple times; after your divorce, when you met Mick, when Sebastian became independent, and recently, too, when you started vlogging.
I guess maybe it depends on how we define reinvention. I see it as a shift towards becoming more true to ourselves. I hear what you're saying about just not wanting to be target, anymore. How other people treat us is largely out of our control, and bullies don't want us to lift ourselves up. The only thing we can do is get away from them, and often that's enough for us to more fully inhabit ourselves.
Nailed it! It's gotta be pain, right? Even if you just moved, why invent yourself when everything is going great?